there is a limit which any1 can handle. the life which we envisaged for ourselves and what actually happens is very different. wondering everyday what will be the future, i have lost will to keep fighting. the optimism which i once oozed and my belief in making relationships work till the end are just lost. there is no way that life will be less miserable for me. and being here today, i can very well see myself. so many things that have gone wrong and i have been unable to do anything about them. now the time has come that my life gets started and i forget about the things that have always pulled me down and made me the non confident and afraid person i am today. n i write all this on this blog thinking that nobody but me will only hear my thoughts. i am just tired of fighting the same old battle and losing. my life sometimes goes haywire and still i hide my tears and worries behind an ever smiling face. people say that i am very emotional and somehow i feel as if i may never succeed coz so many situations have happened and i still am afraid, anxious and a child. will i ever be able to grow up and be taken seriously.