Its been a while since we last met. Its been too long since we talked A thousand unspoken words A thousand broken promises Distances separated us immensely They brought forth the weaknesses  Which our relationship was too frail to handle We left each other long back Even when we use to hold hands Love was never there.. Laughter too feeble to be heard We were together but never in the same place Friendship was unable to sustain us N we got tired of the paths we use to foray Never meeting like d rail tracks we use to watch

Hmm... I don't know if yesterday was good or bad. It was different and i am not completely sure i liked it. I met someone unlike anyone else.... So very different from the kind of people i am friends with. He made me laugh like i use to.. When i use to be a little more innocent than i am today. I am sure i don't want to meet him again EVER. He made me question the life i am spending right now and i think i am not ready to face that reality today or anytime soon. He is the kind of guy i hope i could be like someday... Not caring what people really think and not pretending that we don't care but secretly we do. I felt scared yesterday and i don't want to feel that anytime again.

The unlivable...it so happens that sometimes u feel so much happiness that nothing seems to matter.. That moment is your greatest part... It seems to last forever... alas... It doesnt...the cruelty and the torture seems to start with no end in sight.being in love sucks and being out of love sucks even more.. Loving someone and not being loved back, hurting urself in ways and disgracing a part of you, not even feeling ur worth, self depracating in every possible way..asking urself why u did it and why u keep doing it .. But always staring into a void of darkness...that unspeakable truth of sorts..that circle of neverending guilt and destruction.. Being the broken and fucked up person that you thought u will never be... Rather than the loved one u always wished to be..dis blabber of utmost regret just becoz he forgot to say gud night or bbye or even he missed me sometime... What has my life become and what has he made me?

Love does stop ur heart for a minute and then laughter stops altogether. Life is funny and a tragedy at the same time. It is hard too. More hard than i thought it will be. Its really astonishing that the heart really hurts sometimes. I didnt believed in that kind of thing before. Bt it does. The pain takes you over and the isolation and sadness which we feel is undescribable. If you live in the moment, stop living becoz there will come a time when you will try to relive all ur moments and the pain of those moments will destroy
you and even more cause you tremendous pain. Will you cone out as a stronger or weaker person is yet to be seen.
So living in the moment is d worst you can do to your heart.
So look ahead and think coz believe it or not heart bleeds and there is no cure

He is going in another month. Dont no... How can i stop him. Dont know how to make him understand that i cant let him go. Dont know how to say that i need him... He is a habit... A addiction... Maybe a part of me.
Another month..... I can see him....feel him.... Hold him.....n den he will be gone for ever.... From this city.... Maybe from my life...
I can still feel his eyes on my face... His hands in mine....his protecting me.... But i cant remember when i came close to him. I cant remember when i start feeling his presence in my life...  he is gonna go n dere will b a gaping hole where he was.
I dont even know i love him.... He is d first guy i kissed...
he is d guy i hav let so close.
N he is so different dan d guy i wanted. He is so diff dan me. I know i hav to let him go.
Its just so difficult. N it sucks big time

one hell of a saturday

So.... U live in this n what do u do each weekend. Just sit at home n enjoy d laziness of d monumental burden on earth that u r. Sumwhere anna hazare might be getting sumthing done fr d country n countless ppl r on d verge of a historic moment.... I took a detour..... Did sumthing normally dont hav d courage or will to do.
So 2 ppl on a bike 2 enjoy d day.... N d meanwhile getting comfortable n friendly. So i guess friends can really make life n in dis case chennai worth loving.
Be it d amazing beaches or d roadside chai or even fortune tellers who r just Too keen to get u married by sum stroke of luck n get sumthing to eat too.... Its d simple things in life dat really make it so much beautiful..... Be it d long walk or a long talk..... Or a bike ride or even a simple smile..... It does wonders to sumone's day n mood.
So wat i hav till now written doesnt explicitly state wat i did on saturday..... N i m pretty sure u might not be too interested in wat i hav got 2 say too. Waise bhi yaar ur life is too much messed up if u want 2 read abt my saturday.
Just wanted to say that mayb.... U think u r nt at d best of places wid d best of pubs or hang outs..... Bt really ppl do dose really matters. Wat matters is ppl....n u can easily get gud ppl nywhere.... Remember normal distribution.....d concept works here too..... Trust me. So smile a little.... N smile 2 d unknown ppl around u.... U might never know u might me making sum1 else's day.

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afternoon scrawls

There comes a time in life when everything seems haywire.... When u feel dat its nt what u thot or really imagined life to be. In this time of desperation what should be one's course.... to go on living d life one has right now or take a stand to change it. Can we develop the courage to understand this desperation and do we do nything to change it.
Are we not the biggest catalysts in our own lives ?? we are d drivers of our fate. Destiny is what we make of ourselves.
Everyday we look at our surroundings n find ppl hurrying to reach their destinations. Bt d thing we notice is dey r running to go to their everyday jobs being a puppet in d hands of a big company. But do v ever divert our attention to the chosen few who may not b as well off or maynot hav as much money as d oders but these r d ppl who r living their dreams. Dey r running to make a mark.... A diff ......n dey r nt giving up even after so many failures
Where do i stand in both these sets?? am i d driver of my life or am i being driven like d majority. Will i make a diff in d world like a select few?? bt to answer this question..... To make a diff...... Every1 needs 2 follow dere dream.....be dat change dey want 2 see in d world.

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